«Outpouring Spirit into Matter» (Darshan #12) (1-22-97)

Darshan with the Messenger “Outpouring Spirit into Matter” was given by Elizabeth Clare Prophet on January 22, 1997, at the Royal Teton Ranch, Corwin Springs, Montana. (This is the 12th darshan in the series of 16 given by Mother from October 18, 1996 to February 20, 1997).

What is the Darshan?
Darshan n.: communion with the ascended masters through the messengers mantle.

Elizabeth Clare Prophet gives the teaching commenting the book “The Masters and the Path” by C.W. Leadbeater.

…Outpouring Spirit into Matter
All manifestation is cyclic. This means that all forms of life that emanate from God in the Beginning can return to him in the Ending, bearing the fruits of all the experience gained through the great cycle of activity.
All that lives is really one, and it is the duty of those who enter the Brotherhood to know that as a fact.
There is no loss of the sense of individuality, even though there is an utter loss of the sense of separateness. That seems a paradox, while yet it is obviously true.
We are all facets of a greater consciousness, and what we thought to be our qualities, our intellect, our energies have all the time been His qualities, His intellect, His energy.

“The entire purpose of life is finding God.” – El Morya

[Music] I hope you who are on the phone  patch are able to secure these books and   read them and be prepared to understand  the teachings on their contents this style   of writing is more or less 100 years  old but it is very clear through lead

Better so we’re turning to the  explanation of the diagram on page 171 it begins with an ooid the words at the  top say the ego then there is the first aspect   the second aspect and the third aspect you  can see the division of planes the lowest  

Plane being the physical on the diagram the  physical plane goes through the astral plane   the mental plane and then we enter what is  called here in theosophy the Buddha plane   which is accurate then the neonic plane  the monatic plane and the Divine or AI

Plane so we can look back at the diagram as  we read this teaching in my book it’s page 171 in this chapter lead better is explaining a  main tenant of theosophy he says all manifestation   is cyclic this means that all forms of life  that emanate from God in the beginning can  

Return to him in the ending bearing the fruits  of all the experience gained through the great   cycle of activity the subtitle of the chapter  the birth of the ego describes a key point in   the trajectory when matter is in fired with  an ego and it is able to begin the Journey  

Back Home to God lead betters diagram shows  three separate descents of spirit into matter   he labels these descents after the three  persons of the Trinity the first descent   into matter is from the third aspect of the  truth trity the Holy Spirit now this is our  

Explanation of this diagram so if you’re  looking for you won’t find it in just these words in the diagram it is  represented by the lowest   of the three circles shown at the top of the page this is called the first

Outpouring it vivifies virgin matter and awakens  it it into activity matter is electrified by   the outpouring of the Holy Spirit causing  it to build atoms which then join to form molecules the second outpouring as you see  it vertically on the diagram the second  

Outpouring comes down from the second aspect  of the Trinity God the sun in the diagram it   is shown as descending from the middle circle  this outpouring draws the electrified matter   around itself and forms it into bodies  that it can inhabit the lowest level to  

Which the energy Falls is the mineral Kingdom  represented in the diagram by the very bottom   of the curve the energy next turns upwards  to insole the vegetable Kingdom and then the   animal kingdom when this spiritual energy  has risen to the high highest level of the  

Animal kingdom a major event takes place  that event is the joining of the third   Descent of energy called the third outpouring  to the rising spiritual energy of the second outpouring the third outpouring has descended  from the third aspect of the Trinity God the  

Father this is shown in the diagram by  the line from the circle at the top of   the page page ending at the small circle  with a triangle in it on the right hand   side of the page the small circle represents  the juncture of the new third outpouring with  

The earlier second outpouring the spiritual  energy from the father came forth from him   long ago it has been hovering like a mighty  Cloud waiting for the previously released   energy to rise as far as it was able hovering  at at that level it is called the monad the

Monad the monad is therefore the Pure White  Light of the third outpouring that has flashed   straight down from its source and has not  passed through any other form of matter the   major event that takes place is the formation  of a new causal body when the monad joins a  

Striving animal soul that has broken away from  the group Soul the significance of this event   is that it is now possible for the being with a  new causal body to return to God in the diagram   the small circle with the triangle inside  it represents the new causal body and the  

Triangle inside the circle represents  the ego you can keep your page on that chart in his book man visible and invisible LED  better defines the ego the word ego as used in   theosophical literature does not correspond  to the ego of modern psychology but perhaps  

More accurately relates to the center of  Consciousness called the self in theosophy   the ego is postulated as the true individual  who periodically puts down poor of himself into   personalities through successive incarnations for  all practical purposes the ego may be termed the  

Soul it is regarded as that higher aspect of  mind which is INS separately linked with the   higher intuition and irradiated by the spirit the  causal body is so to speak the home of the ego it   serves as a vehicle of abstract thought and as  a storehouse for the essence of all experience  

Gained through the various incarnations this  should not be thought of in terms of space   of course but rather as a complex of vibratory  possibilities which will influence future actions   and experience it is termed causal because it  is the realm of causes when this causal body is  

Newly formed it is transparent yet iridescent  like a gigantic soap bubble when viewed by the   higher Clairvoyant sight it resembles the soap  bubble in being almost empty in its appearance   for the Divine Force which is really contained  within it has had no time to develop its latent  

Qualities and consequently there is little color  but though a man now possesses a causal body he   is very far from being sufficient efficiently  conscious to receive Impressions at that level   therefore the method of progress designed for him  is reincarnation slowly through many incarnations  

Man develops within himself many qualities and all  good development is steadily stored up within the   causal body lead better discusses the problem  that arises when one attempts to make a diagram   of the theosophical teachings he points out when  one speaks of the movement of energy from finer  

Matter into denser matter it is customary to use  the term descent and these planes of matter are   portrayed in the diagram as though they lay one  above the other like the shelves of a bookcase   nevertheless he says in reality the matter of  all these planes lies in the same space so that  

When we speak of the Divine Life as descending  into matter it must be clearly understood that   no Motion in space is implied but simply the  vivification of degrees of matter finally lead   better draws a parallel between the action of  the monad and that of the ego as the monad puts  

Down a part of itself into matter as the ego  so the ego puts down a part of itself into the   personality this last tiny fragment is the Atman  of the Hindus it is described in the upanishads  

As the golden man the size of a thumb who dwells  in the heart lead better concludes I have always   seen it as a brilliant star of light a man may  keep this star of Consciousness where he will  

In one of the seven principal centers of the body  this star of Consciousness is the representative   of the ego down here in these lower PL and as  it manifests through those Vehicles we call it  

Personality and that is the man as he is known  to his friends down here end of quote by lead better so this is something you can contemplate  meditate on enter into depending how much time   you want to put into it now we’re on chapter  eight the eag entitled the birth of the ego  

In order that the further steps on the path  may be clearly understood it is necessary at   this point to consider the ego and the way  in which he has awakened and put forth his   powers to bring the personality into harmony  with himself and to reach up to the buddhic  

Plane and realize his Unity with all that lives  in man visible and invisible and the Christian   Creed I published a diagram which I reproduce here  illustrating the three outpourings of the Divine   Life in our evolutionary scheme communication  with a personality but though that personality  

Is absolutely part of the ego though the only  life and Power in it are those of the ego it   nevertheless often forgets those facts and comes  to regard itself as an entirely separate entity   and works down here for its own ends it has  always a line of communication with the ego  

Often called in our books the antahkarana but it  generally makes no effort to use it in the case   of ordinary people who have never studied these  matters the personality is to all intents and   purposes the man and the ego manifests himself  only very rarely and partially man’s evolution  

In its earlier stages consists in the opening up  of this line of communication so that the ego may   be increasingly able to assert himself through it  and finally entirely to dominate the personality   so that it may have no separate thought or will  but may be merely as it should be an expression  

Of the ego on these lower planes it must of  course be understood that the ego belonging   as he does to an altogether higher plane can  never fully Express himself down here the most   for which we can hope is that the personality  will contain nothing which is not intended by  

The ego that it will Express as much of him as can  be expressed in this lower world the absolutely   untrained man has practically no communication  with the ego the initiate has full communication   consequently we find as we should expect that  there are men Among Us at all stages between  

These two extremes it must be remember that the  ego himself is only in process of development   and that we have therefore to deal with egos  in very different stages of advancement in any   case an ego is in a great many ways something  enormously bigger than a personality can ever  

Be though as has been said he is but a fragment  of the monad he is yet complete as an ego in his   causal body even when his powers are undeveloped  whereas there is but a touch of his life in the  

Personality it is also true that life is at his  level is an infinitely larger and more Vivid   thing than what we know as life down here just as  it is evolution for the personality to learn to  

Express the ego more fully so it is evolution for  the ego to learn to express the monad more fully   an undeveloped personality forgets all about  this connection with the ego and feels himself   quite independent it can hardly be possible for  an ego at his much higher level to be unaware  

Of his link with the monad certainly some egos  are far more awake to the necessities of their   evolution than others which is only another way of  saying that there are older and younger Egos and   that the older are striving more earnestly than  the younger to unfold their latent possibilities

The next section is in his own world we are apt  to think that the only development possible for   an ego is through the personality but that is not  so or rather it is so only in connection with one  

Small set of qualities as I have explained at  length in man visible and invisible the causal   body of an undeveloped man is almost colorless  as in the process of his Evolution he develops   good qualities which can find corresponding  vibrations in the matter of the causal body the  

Colors expressive of these qualities begin to show  themselves and presently the causal body instead   of being empty is full of active pulsating life so  much more of the ego can now manifest through it   that it has to increase enormously in size it  extends further and further from its physical  

Center until the man is able to unold hundreds and  even thousands of persons within himself and so to   exercise a vast influence for good but all this  wonderful though it be is only one side of his  

Development he has quite other lines of progress  of which we down here know nothing he is living   a life of his own among his peers among the great  arupa deas among all kinds of Splendid angels in a  

World far beyond our Ken the young ego probably  probably is but little awake as yet to all the   Glorious life just as a baby in arms knows little  of the interests of the world surrounding him but   as his Consciousness gradually unfolds he awakens  to all this magnificence he becomes fascinated  

By its vividness and Beauty at the same time he  himself becomes a glorious object and gives us for   the first time some idea of what God means man to  be among such beings thoughts no longer take form  

And Float about as they do at lower levels but  pass like lightning flashes from one to another   here we have no newly acquired Vehicles gradually  coming under control and learning by degrees more   or less feebly to express the soul within but  we are face to face with one body older than the  

Hills and actual expression of the Divine Glory  which ever rests behind it and shines through   it more and more in the gradual unfolding of its  powers here we deal no longer with outward forms   but we see the things in themselves the reality  which lies behind the imperfect expression here  

Cause and effect are one clearly visible in their  Unity like two sides of the same coin here we   have left the concrete for the abstract we have  no longer the multiplicity of forms but the IDE   idea which lies behind all those forms here the  essence of everything is available we no longer  

Study details we no longer talk round a subject  or Endeavor to explain we take up the essence   or the idea of the subject and move it as a whole  as one moves a piece when playing chess what down  

Here would be a system of philosophy needing  many volumes to explain it is there a single   definite object a thought which can be thrown  down down as one throws a card upon the table   an opera or an oratorio which here would occupy a  full Orchestra for many hours is in the rendering  

Is there a single Mighty chord the methods of  the whole school of painting are condensed into   one magnificent idea and ideas such as these are  the intellectual counters which are used by egos   in their converse one with another it is not easy  to explain in physical words the differences which  

Exist between egos since all of them are in many  ways much greater than anything to which we are   accustomed down here an ego who is already on the  path and is nearing adeptship has much in common   with the great angels and radiates spiritual  influences of prodigious power his interest  

In the personality can we wonder then that the  ego throws himself energetically into the world   of intense activity of his own plane and that  it seems to him immensely more interesting and   important than the faint far distant struggles  of a cramped and half formed personality veiled  

In the dense obscurity of a lower world in the  physical life of the ordinary man of the world   there is little of interest to the ego and it  is only now and then that something of real   importance occurs that may for a moment attract  his attention so that from it he draws nearer  

Whatever is worth taking the ordinary man lives in  patches more than half the time he is not awake to   the real and higher life at all some of us are  apt to complain that our egos take very little  

Notice of us let us ask ourselves how much notice  we have taken of them how often for example in any   given day have we even thought of the ego if we  wish to attract his attention we must make the  

Personality useful to him as soon as we begin to  devote the greater part of our thought to higher   things and that is equivalent to saying as soon as  we really begin to live the ego will be likely to  

Take somewhat more notice of us the ego knows  that certain necessary parts of his Evolution   can be achieved only through the personality and  in its mental astral and physical bodies he knows   therefore that he must sometime attend to it must  take it in hand and bring it under his control but  

We can well understand that the task May often  seem uninviting that a given personality may   appear anything but attractive or hopeful if we  look at many of the personalities around us their   physical bodies poisoned with meat alcohol and  tobacco their astral bodies wreaking with greed  

And sensuality and their mental bodies having no  interests Beyond business or perhaps horse racing   and priz fighting it is not difficult to see why  an ego surveying them from his lofty height might   decide to postpone his serious effort to another  incarnation in the hope that the next set of  

Vehicles might be more amenable to influence than  those upon which his horrified gaze then rested we   can imagine that he might say to himself I can do  nothing with that I will take my chance of getting   something better next time it can hardly be worse  and meantime I have much more important business  

To do up here a similar thing not infrequently  happens in the early stages of a new Incarnation   from the birth of the child the ego is hovering  over it and in some cases he begins to try to  

Influence its development while it is still very  young as a general rule he pays little attention   to it until about the age of seven by which  time the work of the karmic Elemental should be   practically over children differ so widely that  it is not surprising to find that the relation  

Between the Egos and the personalities involved  differs widely also some child personalities are   quick and responsive some are dull or Wayward  when the latter characteristics are prominent   the ego often withdraws his active interest for  the time hoping that as the childish body grows  

It may become cleverer or more responsive such a  decision may seem to us unwise because if the ego   neglects his present personality it is unlikely  that the next will be an improvement upon it and   if he allows the child body to develop without  his influence the undesirable qualities which  

Have been manifested May quite possibly grow  stronger instead of dying out but we are hardly   in a position to judge since our knowledge of the  problem is so imperfect and we can see nothing   of the higher business to which he is devoting  himself from this it will be seen how impossible  

It is to judge with any Precision the position  in evolution of anyone whom we see only on the   physical plane in one case karmic causes may  have produced a very fair personality having   an ego of only moderate advancement behind it  while in another case those causes may have  

Given rise to an inferior or defective personality  belonging to a comparatively Advanced ego a good   illustration of this appears among the stories  of the life of the Lord Buddha a man came to   him one day as people in trouble were want to do  and told him that he had great difficulty with  

His meditation which he could scarcely succeed  in doing at all then the Buddha told him that   there was a very simple reason for it that in  a previous life he had foolishly been in the   habit of annoying certain holy men and disturbing  their meditations yet that man may have been more  

Advanced as an ego than some of his companions  whose meditations were well done when the ego   does decide to turn the full force of his his  energy upon the personality the change which   he can produce is marvelous no one who has not  personally investigated the matter can imagine  

How wonderful how rapid how radical such a change  may be when conditions are favorable that is when   the ego is reasonably strong and the personality  not incurably vicious more especially when a   determined effort is made by the personality on  its side to become a perfect expression of the ego  

And make itself attractive to him the attitude of  the personality the difficulty of this subject is   greatly enhanced by the fact that it is necessary  for us to regard it simultaneously from two points   of you most of us down here are very emphatically  personalities and think and act almost exclusively  

As such yet we know all the time that in reality  we are Egos and those of us who by many years of   meditation have rendered ourselves more sensitive  to finer influences are often conscious of the   intervention of this higher self the more we can  make a habit of identifying ourselves with the  

Ego the more clearly and sanely shall we view  the problems of life but in so far as we feel   ourselves to be still personalities looking  up to our higher selves it is obviously our   duty and our interest to open ourselves to them  to reach up toward Wards them and persistently  

To set up within ourselves such vibrations as  will be of use to them at least let us be sure   that we do not stand in the way of the ego that we  always do our best for him according to our lights  

Since selfishness is the intensification of the  personality our first step should be to get rid   of that then we must keep our minds filled with  high thoughts for if they are continually occupied   with lower matters even though these lower matters  may be quite estimable in their way the ego cannot  

Readily use them as channels of expression when  he makes a tentative effort when he puts down   an exploratory finger let us receive him with  enthusiasm and hasten to obey his behests that   he may take possession of our minds more and more  and so come into His inheritance as far as these  

Lower PLS are concerned thus shall we set our  feet upon the path which leads directly to that   first initiation in which the lower and the higher  become one or rather the greater has absorbed the   Lesser so that there should now be nothing in the  personality which is not a representation of the  

Ego the lower is now merely an expression of the  higher the personality may have had a great many   unpleasant qualities of his own such as jealousy,  anger and depression but they have all been cast   off and now he merely reproduces that which comes  from above the ego having brought the lower self  

Into harmony with himself is now reaching upwards  into the buddhic plane the plane of unity it is   only in this way that the man can begin to  cast off the delusion of self which stands   in the way of his further progress and that is  why the buddhic experience is necessary at the  

First initiation if it has not been had before in  many cases it has come earlier because the higher   emotions showing themselves in the astral body  have reflected themselves in the buddhic vehicle   and aroused it and consequently there is some  Awakening before initiation realization of unity  

All that lives is really one and it is the duty  of those who enter the Brotherhood to know that   as a fact we are taught that the self is one  and we try to understand what that means but  

It is quite a different thing when we see it for  ourselves as the candidate does when he enters the   buddha plane it is as if in physical life we were  each living at the bottom of a well from which we  

May look up at the sunlight in the world above  and just as the light shines down into the depth   of many Wells and yet ever Remains the one light  so does the light of the one illumine the darkness  

Of our hearts the initiate has climbed out of  The Well of the personality and sees that the   light which he thought to be himself is in very  truth the infinite light of all while living in   the causal body the ego already acknowledged the  Divine Consciousness in all when he looked upon  

Another ego his Consciousness leapt up as as it  were to recognize the Divine in him but on the   buddhic plane it no longer leaps to greet him  from without for it is already enshrined within  

His heart he is that Consciousness and it is his  there is no longer the U and the I for both are   one facets of something that transcends and yet  includes them both yet in all this strange Advance  

There is no loss of the sense of individuality  even though there is an utter loss of the sense   of separateness that seems a paradox while yet  it is obviously true the man remembers all that  

Lies behind him he is himself the same man who  did this action or that in the far off past he   is in no way changed except that now he is much  more than he was then and feels that he includes  

Within him himself many other manifestations  as well if here and now a hundred of us could   simultaneously raise our Consciousness into  the intuitional world we should all be one   Consciousness but to each man that would seemed to  be his own absolutely unchanged except that now it  

Included all the others as well to each it would  seem that it was he who had absorbed or included   all those others so we are here manifestly in  the presence of a kind of Illusion and a little   further realization makes it clear to us that  we are all facets of a greater Consciousness  

And that what we have hitherto thought to be  our qualities our intellect our energies have   all the time been his qualities his intellect  his energy we have arrived at the realization   and actual fact of the Tim honored formula Val th  art that it is one thing to talk about this down  

Here and to grasp it or to think that we grasp  it intellectually but it is quite another to   enter into The Marvelous World and know it with a  certainty that can never again be shaken when this   pudic Consciousness fully impresses the physical  brain it gives a new value to all the actions and  

Relations of life we no longer look upon a person  or object no matter with what degree of kindliness   or sympathy we simply are that person or object  and we know him or it as we know the thought of  

Our own brain or the movement of our own hand we  appreciate his motives as our own motives even   though we may perfectly understand that another  part of ourselves possessing more knowledge or   a different Viewpoint might act quite differently  yet it must not be supposed that when a man enters  

Upon the lowest subdivision of the intuitional  world he at once becomes fully conscious of his   Unity with all that lives that Perfection  of sense comes only as the result of much   toil and trouble when he has reached the highest  subdivision of this realm of unity to enter that  

Plane at all is to experience an enormous extent  I of Consciousness to realize himself as one with   many others but before him there opens a time  of effort of self-development analogous at that   level to what we do down here when by meditation  we try to open our Consciousness to the plane next  

Above us step by step subplane by subplane the  aspirant must win his way for even at that level   exertion is still necessary Neary if progress is  to be made exertion is still necessary I would  

Suggest you Circle those four words and put them  on your wall because some of us think that we have   it made and we don’t have to exert an effort at  all but we do having passed the first initiation   and consciously entered the budic plane this  work of developing himself on subplane after  

Subplane L Now lies before the candidate in order  that he may get rid of the three great Fetters as   they are technically called which embarrass  his further progress he is now definitely on   the path of Holiness and is described in the  Buddhist system as the soap Pati or san he who  

Has entered the stream while among the Hindus he  is called the peraka which means the one wer one   who no longer feels that any place in the three  lower worlds is his Abiding Place of Refuge so he  

Is definitely on the path of Holiness he is one  who has entered the stream and he is called The   Wanderer one who no longer feels that any place  in the three lower worlds is his Abiding Place of Refuge I want to talk to you about a  subject that concerns me greatly and  

I think this is a good opportunity to get  into it you’re welcome to take notes and we   won’t be looking at the theosophy books for  this the subject is on the topic of taking offense we are offended when a fellow chela  even in the most loving and delicate way  

Attempts to correct us in a situation where  if we would be listening we would take the   advice we would take the suggestion but  because it is a chela who is speaking   to us and not the messenger or not El Morya  or Kuthumi or an ascended Master then often  

We find that people go from uh mild dislike  to uh a tremendous amount of anger with the   sense how dare you correct me how dare you  uh tell me that something I’m doing isn’t right so what happens is when people don’t take  correction from the Christ in one another then  

They are also not eligible to be corrected  by the guru or the ascended masters so if   you reject the messenger if the messenger is an  ant El Morya says heed him if we don’t listen   to the messenger thank the messenger even if we  can’t stand the messenger and we don’t believe  

Anything that he has said to us is correct about  ourselves because we have our own human opinions   about what wonderful people we are and so I have  seen the ramifications of this to be the following  

That when you refuse the messenger that God has  sent you if the messenger be an ant heed him and   you turn away that messenger then you lose the  opportunity to be received or to receive the next   messenger who may be lower than an ant because  if you keep rejecting Messengers you finally  

Are start at the top and you go down and down  and down and down until pretty soon uh you are   not heeding what what El Morya is saying to you  because you are indignant that someone who is so  

Lowly and untutored and perhaps doesn’t even speak  English correctly uh may not be clean in body may   have all kinds of things around them that are in a  front to you well if if all of that uh burdens you  

And you can’t receive from the beggar at the gate  uh a correction then no angel will come again to   give you the opportunity to be corrected because  you have denounced your fellow Chela or someone  

You’ve met along the way maybe you maybe you meet  someone on a train or a plane and they just make   a remark that is kind of a put down and you get  all uh you know huffy and puffy about this thing  

That some somebody spoke to you and put you down  well every time this happens you make Karma you   lose what you have gained in tremendous service  good service and you set yourself back on the   path you could be facing El Morya right now  and not recognize him because he would come  

To you in the guise of a beggar and this beggar  is begging for food or for money or a few coins   or whatever and you refuse to give that beggar  anytime but you turned around and you embrac the  

Beggar and then you realize you have embraced  El Morya who has come to you in Disguise so if   you if you look at your fellow chelas in this  room and in all the patches who are attending   you realize that there’s probably any number of  people who are sitting with you this evening that  

You could learn a lot from in whose presence you  might learn humility in whose presence you may   come to know your pride in whose presence you  may come to know your anger because someone has  

Spoken down to you and your pride simply does not  allow you to process it so I have wondered over   the years what would be the opportune venue for  me to take up this subject and for me it is our

Daran I have heard people say to me recently that  that someone has blown up at them or at least   gotten very overheated and indignant that um they  were challenged and I can remember incidents like  

That that I have seen I can remember in my own  self over the years that I have found that I had   to bring in the Reigns of my own Pride to see to  it that I was not rejecting someone that God has  

Sent to me no one uh is exempt from this we we  have all seen this happen in our lives but the   fact that we are chela of El Morya and we will  listen to him or the messenger but we will not  

Listen to each other is a very serious matter of  Pride and I’m asking all of us to get rid of it   to recognize it when we see it to know that that  pride comes sneaking up through our dweller on the  

Threshold through our sense of how important  important we are and all of a sudden without   warning this this part of our dweller leaps  out of us leaps out of our mouth and attacks   the very angel that has come to lead that one  back to the straight and the home word path if  

You have had any circumstances recently or at any  time in your life that bring back this particular   subject I would like you to come to the lecturn  if you would like to tell your story about an   experience of human Pride this is an opportunity  for you to balance Karma where you have rejected  

A fellow chela or someone in the community or a  stranger at the gate where you have neglected to   turn off your pride and receive that messenger I’d  like us to ponder this because of the following  

Many of you have been on the path for many years  many of you for many embodiments when you are new   on the path even if you might not be a teenager  or a child but on in years when you are new on  

The path you are like a newborn babe the Masters  treat you gently and carefully they’ve overlooked   some things that they’re not going to overlook  5 years later or 10 years later because by that  

Time you should know better so if you let Pride  as a snake kind of curl in and out of your life   like this and you don’t do something about  it then your karma will be heavier because  

You know the law and when we know the law then  we don’t have an excuse I think pride is a very   intense enemy and I think it lurks in places and  if we are off guard that Pride takes us over so  

Some of you have been counting the years that you  have served here in preparation for your leaving   and you’re taking the package some of you have  served for many many many years you are the ones  

Who are most vulnerable you are the ones who must  recognize that Pride will follow you out the door   so will anger so will your criticism of the way  this happened or that happened or the next thing  

Happened Pride can be your downfall in this life  even if you are seen as a saint by your friends by   your family members you can lose your Ascension by  not slaying pride pride as we know is embodied in  

Lucifer in Satan and in the Fallen Angels so if we  allow ourselves to be proud we are also going to   be allowing in these Fallen Angels into our very  bodies and then by and by it is not only Pride  

But is it is anger that explodes through us now it  takes courage to stand up and talk about pride and   how we have allowed Pride to cause us to fall  but I think we need to discuss it because none  

Of us is exempt from this and and I should like  to hope that wherever we are whether we’re here   at the ranch or we’re somewhere in the world that  everyone will remember that there’s one thing you  

Cannot allow in your life and that is pride which  leads you to your fall and to your [Music] undoing   hi Mother hi everybody um I had gone to the  other room to watch the video and because I  

Was was being uncomfortable in the court and  uh then you were saying this thing about if the   messenger be an ant um and if we had anything that  had happened to us recently about Pride I said wow  

She’s talking to me so I ran back to um come and  share this it just happened just uh at supper time   uh with my husband and he we were talking about  decreeing and how much time we spend decreeing  

And going to services and my husband is um quite  diligent about trying to attend as much as he can   all the decree sessions and services and I tend to  be more LAX or I have a more of a difficulty doing  

As many as I would like and so he was trying to  tell me that he believed that I should try to do   more and I didn’t want to I didn’t want to listen  to him I I I got offended and as I I said that I  

Didn’t um feel Comfort comfortable he him telling  me that and judging me uh that I felt that my uh   I had I I saw the path as um having um having  a part of work where you give your your service  

In work and um but it has to be balanced with the  decrees so I didn’t want to hear him tell me that   I needed to do more decrees but I I I regret that  now that I should have listen because if I don’t  

Listen to this messenger how will I get closer  to the higher Messengers um so I would like to   hear from you if you have any comments um pride  is not something that will go away you have to  

Beat it into submission pride is there and it’s  it’s part of the consciousness of the luciferians   they have even greater Pride than Satan if if  you can even measure the two but pride is core   evil there’s nothing good about Pride nothing  you stop and think about it except you might be  

Exalting in it because someone told you you did  something wonderful and then you start feeling   proud so pride is an enemy and you will not  lick the Enemy by doing more service um in your  

Department thinking well if I serve so many extra  hours that’ll make up for being in the court or at   any altar of God it will not make it up because  Pride doesn’t go without a big fight a big fight  

And it’s right there almost like if you would  see a snake right at the right at the forehead   of a snake ready to attack and when we are off  guard so this is why why we go to church this is  

Why we come to the altar to renew our our strength  renew our resolve to commune together and support   one another when we see we’ve had a Frailty but  um you will not beat Pride by rationalizing that  

If I go and do this work and work all night that  somehow um I will overcome my pride no you will   only overcome your pride by wrestling with it  and really wrestling hard and then doing what  

Gama Buddha does is to self observe as you go  through your day You observe what is my heart   doing what is my head doing um am I at peace do I  have anger do I have pride has someone annoyed me  

Five minutes ago and irked me it’s like this Pride  that goeth before the fall this is is probably   Lucifer’s greatest weapon against the Saints so  never underestimate this this Spirit of Pride who   can come to you in the night in the day anytime  anywhere and uh especially point out to this and  

That and the next person um how terrible they are  and then you know you go along with the luciferian   mentality so I think if I was if I were going to  put Pride somewhere on the chakras I would put it  

On the crown chakra because there sits the coiled  serpent on the Crown in place of uh the living   godhead who is over us and we have to displace  him so I think it’s serious and I think without  

Realizing it because evil is so um conniving that  we have made karma when we haven’t realized that   we’ve made Karma just because we have hung on to  some aspect of Pride how dare that someone said  

Thus and such to me how dare they talk to me that  way and so forth all of that we have to conquer   and we need to do it fast we need to be right  there with our with our weapons and and ready  

For that Spirit every time it comes so don’t let  that Spirit put you down and make you feel like   you’re an awful person that’s the next thing they  do so don’t let that happen drive it right back  

Into them bind the dweller and move on learn a  lesson don’t repeat it don’t have to take that   lesson 60 times you know learn it once learn  it well be on guard we’ll win we’ll have our Victory why don’t you invite a friend or  a stranger in the community to honestly  

Express to you um what what they may think of  your situation or your pride it might be very   enlightening to hear that from someone we should  be able to take it thank you the antidote for   pride is humility do something that is humbling  to you you know scrub the kitchen floor without  

Being told clean the bathrooms when nobody  notices you um you know do something special   for a friend but don’t tell them that you’ve  done it because whatever that special thing   is uh they’ll receive it one way or the other  don’t make known um the blessings you give to  

People because if you have to tell someone or  a group of people what a wonderful thing you   did for these Starving Children over here you  you’ve kind of missed the point of the Glorious   um gift that you receive from being an anonymous  Giver it’s like the statue on the altar it’s an  

Anonymous Giver so now our attention is upon the  statue and not constantly on The Giver of the statue so let’s do some humble things let’s do   some humble things that we  have thought were beneath

Us this very morning I work in shipping and I pick  thousands of orders off the shelves every day and   I said to myself when I make all these I don’t  make a lot of mistakes but say out of a thousand  

Picked items in a day I might have two or three  errors and the Packers have to come and say to me   uh you know the you made a mistake here and I find  it very difficult um to fail I I just find it very  

Difficult and I I’ve worked in shipping now for  four years and I am very defensive and I didn’t   realize I was Defensive except as I said this  morning I said my goodness every time they call  

Me on something I have to um defend myself I have  to say oh because of this or because of this or   because of that I did you know I made this mistake  it’s I can’t you know just back off and just say  

Thank you for you know catching that before um  it went through and so um when we first I was   picking a chers ship pin today and I said when I  when that Chila ship pin first came out I used to  

Tell everybody oh I’ll never meet Mother to get  a correction but boy I’ll meet someone every day   that’s going to correct me and that chers ship  pin to me always meant that I was going to get  

A correction from some Chela or somebody uh that  would be speaking for you or the Masters that’s   very good that’s very good I can be many places  at once but only at one place where you can see  

Me because the rest of the time I’m out of the  body somewh so you probably are not going to   have to exercise that chil ship pin very often  because you’re not going to see me very often so  

You have already gotten the idea that that chers  ship pin is for you to invite chelas right to to   help you self- perfect yes and I I’ve um like I  said I’ve gotten some real criticisms from that  

Pen and every day I wear it proudly knowing that  elore or somebody’s going to speak to me through   another but um I as I say I’ve been having a lot  of difficulty lately and I it’s not so much a  

Difficulty as I consider it a Grace that all of a  sudden I’m very conscious of always uh defending   myself when I fail and um did you did you have  to do that to please your father or your mother  

Yes and uh that’s another thing I was going to  mention is that it’s definitely in child work   because when this individual or a individual  there’s four or five men that I work with and  

Uh this one time a couple days ago I said oh my  goodness that was my father I mean I was just so   obvious that it was my father speaking to me that  I said boy I have a lot of work to do on that so  

Um I you’re awake you know how many people here  really think you’re awake we all should be awake   shouldn’t we but we’re maybe not awake 100% of the  time awake to the fact that this is an initiation  

So there’s uh a lot of work to do and I know I  have a lot of work to do on that pride and I and   I know particularly that I have problems with the  equality where some people are too high like I I  

Still have problems with my relationship with you  that you know you’re just too high for me to even   communicate with and then others it’s like I find  myself often you know thinking oh I know more than  

You do you know or I I know how to do that better  than you do and I see that as pride and uh I’ve   been very conscious of that lately too sometimes  it’s helpfulness you know if you can help someone  

Do something that they’re awkward at doing so um  who is it I think it’s um Amitabha the Buddha that   um I’ve asked to help me with this situation call  for his electronic presence over you every day his  

Chakras over your chakras every day and this will  accelerate more swiftly yes so I want to apologize   to all the fellows in shipping for uh giving them  a hard time instead of uh gracefully accepting uh   their Corrections well as you are gracious they  will look into the mirror of your soul and your  

Soul will reflect back to them your graciousness  and so they will be gracious to you thank you dearest mother beloved uh friends and  Seekers on the path she sort of had one   Barr I got two barrels to deal with both father  and mother now I’m telling you this not because  

It’s a big horrible story or anything it could  be considered to be that but it’s just it’s just   sort of the way I got it figured out so far and  I would really appreciate anybody who has any  

Insights or or wants to tell me anything that I  do that uh is not leading me toward the Christ   that I would really appreciate you telling me  and I I don’t know exactly how I’ll react to it  

But you know within I will never I will never  hold it against you and I will definitely um   even compliment you on the maybe the next hour  or the next day I guarantee that’s going to be  

The fact but here’s what happened um when I was  growing up before Age 4 my father and my mother   divorced and when my mother took me home to her  grandparents she left me there and went out and  

Worked so I got left by both my parents and a  lot of things happened in the0 to four years   which basically caused me my weak soul to make or  my weak personality or whatever you want to call  

It to make a couple of decisions one the decision  when my father was dangerous and I had to protect   myself from him step two was that my mother was  unreliable she never protected me from my father  

And then she left so she’s unreliable so therefore  I have both Alpha and Omega locked up in boxes not   being unreliable or people that I can be open to  without uh suffering setbacks in fact a footnote  

Here is that the only safe place for me in the  house was in bed sleeping remember some of you   still on the sleeping thing see it still comes up  so um when I when I finally began to dope this out  

Here in the community a little bit um one time I  had to call Michael MacNeil up and tell him that   um I had to apologize for being so hard to get  along with because I realized that he he was an  

Authority figure and therefore fell into the box  with my father and um with women you know it’s   also it’s a difficult thing to get too near them  because you know when you give your love to them  

And they go away uh it it hurts as as it did when  my mother left me when I was young so therefore I   have I’m a 360° prickly pair here both men and  women authority figures and new situations and  

All these bring a lot of fear up for me what are  you going to do about it well just the awareness   of it is making it go away I mean I’m making  a lot of progress in getting it away pardon  

It won’t make it all go away well I I don’t know  I’m making calls all the time on this material I   realize that but there’s the processing you know  you think you’ve you think you’ve beaten it you  

Think you’ve licked it you come around full circle  there it is standing at you standing before you no   it’s still still is there it’s still coming back  I mean it it’s grad it gradually goes away when   we’re sincerely working on our psychology but  you just don’t level it in one night well you  

You make some suggestions I’ll be glad to follow  them well think more of yourself immaculately   and don’t give any power over the circumstances of  your life because these were the karmic conditions   into which you came because of your karma these  parents had to come together to have you they  

Weren’t able to stay together so you were in the  predicament of being cared for here there but if   you keep thinking about that you almost refor  reinforce its reality instead of going back to   that point in time when you knew that you were the  Christ and you were descending into Incarnation  

And that you would meet your karma you would meet  your challenges you would meet this community you   would meet the ascended masters and if you’re on  that positive wavelength of Victory you will make   your Ascension so the point here is don’t don’t be  so focused on the past because we bargain for that  

Every single one of us here in this room if we  had problems with parents father mother siblings   that’s our Karma and we we went before the Lords  of Karma and we said we want to take this Karma  

Now because we want to move on we want to ascend  so this place is the springboard to your Victory   and keep your eye on the goal of Victory rather  than retelling the story and revolving the story   these things according to the amount of years  you’ve been on the path should have greatly  

Reduced reduced in their intensity I don’t know  how intense you feel about those issues now but   you sound like you’re talking about them in the  present tense yet you’ve had all these years   half a century 40 45 whatever your age is you’ve  had time to put this behind you and you’ve known  

About the Violet flame long enough so the  ascended masters are going to get impatient   with you because you need to move on into higher  levels and and put this stuff behind you it has   no power you you’re giving it power and feeding it  power and you’re walking around and saying I’m the  

Kid that you know my parents were divorced this  is what happened to me you know it keeps on you   keep on recreating it after you’ve after you’ve  transmuted it with a violet flame well I didn’t  

Even realize this a month ago well a month is to  Long well that’s fine you’ve been revolving it   a month that’s enough carry on get on with with  with your that’s why I say it’s not it’s just a  

Little ill illustration it’s not a big thing well  we thank you for the illustration thank you Mello   mother friends I’d like to share uh an Insight  that I’ve had about uh Pride I’d like to First   tell two different stories two things that have  happened to me I’ve learned the same lesson twice  

Um and it’s well worth learning so I that’s why  I’m sharing it I was working in 1975 as a security   guard at a coalmine and uh there were several  guys there who were quite very uh serious about  

Our jobs we were very fun living also and one of  the guys decided to go into town once and uh by   a car and uh he went alone he was there was two  brothers and uh so one of the brothers goes into  

Town he buys this car and he comes back with this  amazing bomb I mean it was really a ramshackle car   and we just wrote him about it I mean we really  we were making fun of it of the car he was a very  

Loving person we all loved him he was was like a  forget the I forget the name of the actor but it’s   a very Castello I think uh forget his first name  very much like that guy but anyway he was very  

Much loved he comes back with this car and we were  just we were serious ly making fun of it because   it really was an awful car and then and he really  after about an hour of this he took very serious  

Offense to it and he thought that we were making  fun of him and that he was a bad person because he   had bought this car he was very much identifying  with this car and I what I learned was that when  

We were putting down this car we were really  putting down him his judgment his his judgment   whatever about it his body I mean everything  about him he really felt bad and I felt extremely   bad afterwards we were having a good time and we  really we loved him we didn’t we weren’t putting  

Him down we thought okay that’s Story one second  story is I used to work at L Y and I had about   150 violets in my uh office that’s right you did  and I loved them very much they were blooming all  

The time and uh there was a person that used to  work there who uh I didn’t get along with very   well and he came into my office one day we we  we didn’t really we we like this you know we we  

Just didn’t really connect and he starts talking  about how my violets were like a jungle and and   why are why why does he have all these do I have  all these grungy plants around and he took one of  

The leaves and broke it off you know like to me  he was taking my arm and breaking it off you know   and um I was very calm person at that time and  I I kind of became less than calm at that point

And uh told him to get out of my office  and never come back I mean a little even   more vociferous than that and uh that really  surprised me cuz I me was just like a volcano  

Coming up you know just that was inside of  me and uh so this time the shoe was on the   other foot I was identifying with the violets  and he was the same thing happened exactly and  

I remembered what had happened in 75 said well  this interesting I can happen to me too so the   the point is the lesson that I’ve learned is the  more centered that you are with your holy Christ  

S and the less you identify with outer things the  less you’re going to put yourself in the way of   this Serpent of Pride and and and be uh uh liable  to be stepped on and then have things which you  

Don’t know about coming up and going out instead  of into the viol of flame so that’s that’s the   main thing that I was wanting to convey to you  is that it really pays to uh walk the buddhic  

Path to be be centered in in your heart as much  as you can and I me unconsciously we we live in   the outer world and we’re constantly seeing things  and we identify with them and we think that we own  

A lot of things which we of course don’t own  anything and the more that you think that the   more you’re going to be laying yourself wide open  to be stepped on and taken advantage of El says  

There’s only one thing you do with a rattlesnake  you kill him and just see the rattlesnake as your   pride I just want to share that there’s  only one thing to do with that Pride kill it good evening mother good evening friends  I wanted to share with the community um a few  

Lessons and pride that I’ve had over the years  some of these instances uh I’ve been dealing with   for long periods of time and feel like uh I had a  victory over them uh one of the first Encounters  

Of with pride that I’ve had in after joining staff  was the pride of culture and of upbringing uh I   grew up in a household where we had made servants  and we didn’t have to cook our own food so um one  

Of my tests one of my first tests on staff was  to and I knew it was was to overcome that sense   of Pride that I was the boss and everybody else  was the servant so I learned the how to become  

A servant and uh and the way I learned to pass  this test was to enjoy cleaning cooking making   carrot juice waking up early washing dishes  which um which was very healing for my own  

Soul and I knew that it was like removing the old  um weavings my soul had had when as I was growing   up initially and having to reweave those strands  and learning the concept of service um the second  

Encounter of pride uh one of the tests was that  the pride of position um having a fairly good   education and good standing in school thinking  that I knew more than other people would about   aspects of design construction um there was this  sense of Pride that would not take um answers from  

Anybody else who had not that education and it  was a pride of profession a pride of position   that uh I had to overcome through work through  conscious effort to listen to people so that I   could embody what they were trying to convey  and really incorporate that into my own work  

To learn from them in essence so that that was a  good lesson for me which I I continued to learn   to learn it then there’s a sense of Pride that  have encounted where uh pride of and I’ve seen  

This not only in myself but in other people also  where they um it was the superiority inferiority   complex where you think so and so is is such  and such on staff they have this position on   staff and I’m at this position placing oneself in  a higher or lower position instead of seeing that  

Person as the Christ and yourself as the Christ  striving in the same in the same vein that they   have their own tests you have your own tests  one is not higher than the other but we are   all Christ the one striving to attain that Union  with Christ to out picture the three-fold flame  

Of Love wisdom and power and uh I’ve really had  to work on that and remind myself a lot that it’s   not higher or lower it’s that we are all striving  to attain that goal another um lesson that I’ve  

Had is that uh there’s a pride that refuses to  take the correction when it’s given like mother   would give correction to me over the years and  uh intellectually I’d say well this is the guru  

This is what she says Okay I accept that but in  my heart I would struggle with that and uh when   i’ finally get to the point of acceptance I then  uh I would find myself worthy to receive another  

Correction and then I know that it was an ongoing  process that uh the slaying of this Pride which uh   the presence of the guru accelerates which for  which I’m truly grateful and then uh there’s a  

Pride of uh not wanting to be supervised or not  wanting to accept the word of the guru as it   comes through a supervisor like I’ve worked with  a supervisor for many years and if if I’d be in  

A disagreement with my supervisor I tend to say  well it’s a professional disagreement but if if   one if I looked at it in a different respect and  said that El Morya is trying to tell me something  

Through my supervisor and I just have to be humble  about this then I’ll be able to get through it and   um God knows I encountered this for many years  and when I finally came around to accepting it  

Over the years I’d accepted and accepted U almost  BR beating myself to the point of acceptance when   I finally accepted it with real love then that  test finally started to disappear because I was   able to see the Christ or the flame of the guru  that was coming through this individual and it  

Wasn’t just my supervisor it could have been um  somebody who was my coworker now my current test   which is the hardest one is uh the the hard The  Pride the hardness of heart that is born out of   Pride which refuses to Grant forgiveness for for  wrongs committed it’s it’s uh it’s very difficult  

It’s very difficult people who are criticizing  you are you criticizing no for um that it’s a   it’s a Hardness of Heart that I have and it’s born  out of Pride because people have offended me or   it’s been a very grave long-term long-standing  offense records past lives and that I have to  

Struggle to really um work on forgiveness is very  difficult and that’s that’s my you know I’ve told   this before but if you just let me interject a  couple of sentences here I think you’ve you may  

Remember I’ll refresh your memory that I I was um  living in the little trailer uh next to my office   branch headquarters and I woke up one morning  and I heard my holy Christ self forgiving my   worst enemy and my holy Christ self was doing  this by way of demonstrating mhm this is how  

You forgive your enemy now go and do likewise  and forgive your enemies it was the mo one of   the most glorious experiences I’ve ever had in  all lifetimes to realize that through our holy   Christ self we can forgive and that God deals  with the Divine Justice and he meets out that  

Justice so we don’t have to hold in the anger we  don’t have to hold in the pride because we think   justice has not been done because it is done  instantaneously when you go to your holy Christ  

Self it occurred to me to ask you as you were  telling me that telling us that that uh is there   a pride that refuses that thinks that it is the  self that grants forgiveness instead of instead of  

Accepting that it’s really God’s forgiveness that  is being granted and not not us who is giving the Forgiveness until I understood the difference  between um the the justice and the Forgiveness   elements it was hard for me to let go of  people who had attempted to destroy me  

Destroy the organization you Arch enemies  of evil and darkness somehow I think I had   rationalized in myself that since they’re so  evil and they’re so dark and they’re not of   the light Maybe not worthy of being forgiven  but the exercise of forgiving is so that we  

Grow it’s it’s really not to their benefit  we benefit them because we do get when we   do forgive someone we instantly cut the tie  to an enem that that has been our enemy and   as long as we don’t forgive our enemy uh  we’re we’re tied to that person and that  

Person could be an albatross around your neck  for for hundreds of years thousands of years so forgiving the enemy is a glorious experience  but what makes it palatable is that on the other  

Side of the coin God has said that I will repay I  will repay so God then deals with the justce side   of things and that’s not our business our business  is to forgive and the reason Jesus said it 70 * 7  

Is because he wanted to be sure that thoroughly  and throughout our beings and our chakras we have   forgiven our enemies absolutely thoroughly and  and truly made amends with them or else we would   be tied to them and if we’re tied to them they  may have so much baggage that we we can’t get  

Off the ground we can’t make our Ascension so  an an enemy is like a hot potato you deal with   him immediately you just absolutely deal with  it right now you can’t even hold on to it it’s  

So hot this is you know this is an enemy and you  must forgive that person with all the sincerity of   your heart bless them and send them on their  way so anybody is holding back forgiving you  

Could be having a major problem right now of of  somebody you absolutely have have not been able   to forgive though we’ve mentioned it many many  times over the years but it it was such a sweet   thing thing that my holy Christ self entered with  the holy spirit because they cared about me being  

Disconnected from this person and they walked me  through like I was a little child see this is how   you forgive this is how you do it and I said oh  this is how you do it that’s a wonderful teaching  

Mother it’s it’s like um when when there’s one  BL block it blocks all the rest of the open doors   Beyond it and I feel like I’ve have to go through  this one door of forgiveness so that all the other  

Doors can open well just remember as you were  speaking I I wanted to say to you there is no   end to these Prides we we repeat them we forget  that we decided we were not going to have pride  

And not going to do these things and then all over  again all of a sudden it comes upon us so while   you were speaking El Morya said you will never be  rid of Pride until the day you pass on from this  

Life it will follow you you have to slay it from  every angle from every level from every situation   it will constantly knock at your door it will fool  you it will come in many disguises it will be here  

It will be there it will trick you no you can  I want to be sure you you don’t think that you   have resolved all your pride because you’ve made  a trem tremendous thrust but as soon as you’re off  

Guard it’ll be right there at at the doorstep at  the dwell’s level thank you mother thank you very much good evening mother good evening everyone uh  we and the Portuguese teams we are finishing the  

Jesus Book so we we need to finish it in the next  10 days because one of the one of the ladies is   going to Brazil and she’s the best one of the  best revisers translators so we are kind in a  

Stressful uh schedule over there in our trailer  and uh and it what I noticed with myself is that   small things this these small things that happen  daily like I don’t I don’t express them but like  

We are working and you know we need to do like  three or four chapters each day then someone   else come and try to improve the work or give  some opinion especially now we are changing the  

Paradigm so everyone needs to come and give new  ideas and it’s amazing how inside of myself I feel   that oh boy this person is coming here telling me  these things I don’t say anything but it’s really  

Inside of myself but what I really feel is uh that  I don’t want to listen to people and uh there is   a an attempt to control to even to impose my  opinion of course I don’t say anything maybe  

Some of them are listening to me they not believe  what I’m saying but I think it’s a we are talking   about something that is common for everyone and uh  I remember when like four or five years ago when  

I was in Brazil and we received the instruction  that we should stud psychology and so my first   book was understanding yourself and I don’t know  if was Lanto, Kuthumi or Meru one of them I think  

It was Kuthumi he said the level of pride is  measured by our level of reaction how we we we   we react is the Lev of our pride so since that  time I start noticing in myself when I react to  

Others even if I don’t say anything my pride is  there and then another book that I remember is   toxic parents and and they and they talk about a  non non defensive attitude when someone come to  

You and say you are doing this you’re are doing  that um and you just list and you say okay so I   understand what you are saying you are saying  that I am doing this that I’m doing that you  

Just repeat what the other person is saying but  you don’t defend yourself uh it helped me a lot   using these techniques and then the inner child  work when we one of the techniques is that we  

Repeat what our child said to us like if our  child come and say I’m I’m I’m tired you are   working too much we don’t play instead of saying  you are bad you are wrong we repeat we say well  

You are saying that you you feel tired that we are  not playing is that that you were saying and and   I found out that it’s when I try to do this with  myself I’m able to do if it this this thing with

Others uh but what I want to ask you mother  is that I found out that when I’m not doing   my psychological work uh I always react more to  others if I’m like if I if I if I didn’t use the  

Dialogue in child dialogue that day then I feel  that my reaction is is greater and then when I go   to my room or to a walk and I start talking with  myself I find that uh I am reaction I am reacting  

To others my pride is there criticizing or judging  or not accepting others because I’m not accepting   myself and I I’m not able to listen to my soul and  uh so my question to you mother is uh how does the  

Psychological work come in in this situation of  Pride and if you could please talk a little bit   more about humility because it’s something we  don’t hear too much about humility I think we   published in a pearl of wisdom in the last six  months a page on humility did we not in any case  

Uh pride is a planetary beast and we tie into  it through our child adult uh that should be a   child but is trying to be an adult and where we we  don’t have that proper interaction um one of the  

Things that St Germain did was to mitigate upon  the founding of the United States to mitigate the   momentums of Pride I am absolutely convinc that  St Germaine purged this nation of the serpents of   pride now that doesn’t mean to say that there are  many are not many proud people in this nation but  

A lot of them are of the category where they do  not have a three-fold flame they’re magnates they   they have tremendous power tremendous wealth  and so forth but Rank and file people in the   United States as compared to peoples I’ve met in  Central and South America in in various countries  

Around the world uh there is much greater sense  of Pride you could take France for instance I love   love France I love the French people but when  you when you think of Deal or you think of uh  

The various recent presidents in France M you know  he’s extremely proud I mean I don’t know what he’d   ever do if he stepped on his toe you know it’s  just and and so you you find this all over Europe  

And it was very uh apparent to me when I was  17 and I was uh noticing the difference between   Americans and and other peoples and not only did  St Germaine sponsor us through the Declaration   of Independence and all the basic understanding  of of our form of government uh but he also gave  

Through the goddess of Liberty that opening of  the heart so when you become an American citizen   um you receive that three-fold flame of Liberty  so these are these are amazing things that um St   Germaine decided that it was this nation this  people and the people he was going to bring to  

This nation that he was going to purge them of  that level of Pride I have noticed this when I   go to Canada I’ve noticed how the Black magicians  have moved in moved in in Canada and have injected  

Pride in the people so that if you happen to meet  the wrong person and you say the wrong thing their   pride comes out so in other words it may not be  your psychology it may have something to do with  

Your parents but not everything what it has to  do with is that the Fallen Angels Came Here five   500,000 years ago and perhaps even earlier and  they are the ones who have the pride they are  

The luciferians and they have tried to put a seed  of that Pride almost like you would like like the   seed of life in in us our very core of that seed  of that essence of that ability to procreate that  

They have desired to inject in the people of  the world that seed of Pride because wherever   that seed of pride is sown the person in whom  it is sown is now a prisoner of that pride and   will probably not overcome it unless they are  very astute or devout or extremely determined  

To become humble humility is the antidote for  pride pride cannot touch you when you are truly   humble if you’ve already been injected with Pride  because of of the situation of of all the nations   of the world you now have the tools to undo  it but as morus said earlier you will never  

Get rid of Pride until the day you leave you  leave embodiment because if you overcome Pride   then they have nothing over you they the prince  in this world cometh and haveth nothing in me I would look at the larger picture therefore  and not see yourself as terrible because you  

Have pride none of us should do that it’s  a conspiracy I’m I’m not one that’s running   around with conspiracies all the time but this  is definitely a conspiracy take your mother good   evening mother um I’ve been on the path for  10 years now and I’ve been on staff for just  

Over a year and when you brought up the topic  tonight I realized I really need to get up here   and speak about um this problem of Pride um you  sometimes you just don’t realize how subtle it

Is each day um I come in contact you know with a  certain person and we at times we get onadi well   and then other times we at at real loggerheads and  there’s been two occasions where we’ve actually  

Really confronted each other in in arguing and  shouting at each other um it’s been going on for   a long time and it’s been a real burden because I  couldn’t really understand what what was going on  

Why I would react to this person so much and and  in analyzing it I realize it obviously it is pride   I don’t like being told what to do um there’s  just something that happens especially when when  

I’m working on a task and you you you know you get  interrupted and someone says please will you going   and do this now I feel the these little feathers  on the back of my head get really ruffled and

Um I’ve been working on this I’ve been making  the calls and casting out my Dello and I’ve   written to El Morya to help me balance this  Karma with this person and also um to work on  

This pride and and it’s working um we we seem  to be getting on a little better now and I’ve   apologized to her which was that broke the this  momentum that I you know that’s been building up  

In this last year I feel as as if I’ve actually  made more karma than I have anytime in my life it   seems that way doesn’t it mhm U I just wanted  to share this and I just feel as well that  

You know irritation is a vestage of Pride and  I’ve battled with irritation All My Life um I   remember in my childhood with my sister being  really impatient with her we’ve worked through   that and we we’re actually really close you know  now we’re the best of friends but it still hurts  

When I think of how I treated her and even  at times the way I speak to to my mom it’s   just little things that come up like she came  to visit here she came over during the summer  

Uh and I hadn’t seen her in two years she’s in  South Africa and just one day we were driving   along in she would say well have you check the  radiator water and I nearly blew up I thought  

Why are you asking me this it’s like I just don’t  like being told these things when I I know them and um I just I felt I needed to get up here  and just confess these things mother because  

I know it’s a great deterrent to the path and  I I feel I have you know when you talk about   the setback each day when you faced with these I  mean I’m managing to catch myself now each time  

I’m feeling irritated with a particular person or  I think that we have to um substitute and when I’m   when I’m listening to you we have to learn the  quality of being gracious now if someone comes  

To us in a rude way or PE you know our pride is  peaked we have to take a deep breath and then   respond in graciousness oh thank you for reminding  me maybe I should check the water and and and see  

If uh you know we need it because you’re deferring  to someone who is your senior in age your mother   and and so you know you even if you think you’re  irritable or want to be irritable she really has  

A right to say that to you and you have a right  to be gracious everyone here has a right to be   gracious no matter who’s throwing what at you  we can always return with graciousness and and   there’s so much um love in graciousness there’s  so much tenderness there’s so much of a sense  

Of having a the sensitivity uh of other people  who need to feel loved because you are gracious   toward them so why don’t why don’t we put this  on our notepads on the list and you know when   somebody’s coming uh down the road or or into  your office or somewhere be prepared to respond  

To whatever they’re saying with graciousness if  they ask your help or can you help me do this you   know or they’re they’re perhaps in a tizzy about  something if you can maintain that Center and do  

It for an hour 3 hours 6 hours 12 hours wow one  you know you can go to bed at night and say gee   this whole day I haven’t gotten new irritable  with anybody and I have instead done something  

Positive where I’m making now good good karma  because graciousness is the amazing grace of our   Lord and savior the graciousness is what gets us  through okay it’s kind of fun to conquer yourself   so then you have to figure out ways to outsmart  yourself and outsmart the pride outsmart the ego  

It’s a great feeling when you go to bed with it  but the pride is way waiting for you it’ll be   there tomorrow you have to slay it again believe  me it’s there but the the fact is that God in you  

Is greater and that’s the victory okay thank you  very much M bite your tongue bite your lip until   it bleeds I’m serious rather than make Karma  you bite your lip okay thank you good evening  

Mother evening friends um I first of all I like  to thank my wife for coming up and giving her testimony um I was sitting there thinking to  myself well do I need to get up and I didn’t  

Think so you know and I kind of got this little  subtle nudge from my wife and I asked her if she   was kind of prompting me and she wasn’t she says  I she wasn’t really sure but to me it was sure  

Sure because of that point of irritation that  I felt in that nudge that kind of kept growing   and as I sat there things started to unfold just  uh definitely I do need to get up so so first of  

All the way my wife painted the picture was  that I was a good guy and she was a bad guy   well I think I need to set the record straight um  not to say that anybody’s a good guy or a bad guy  

But um I want to comment on diligence I’m going to  decrease first of all I don’t know how diligent I   am I I kind of don’t think I’m very diligent for  one thing the quality of my decrees don’t seem  

To be up to up to the level but when it comes to  being diligent a lot of times I I feel that uh I think in going to decrees the um the reason  behind it can be a point of problem Pride  

Or or you’re driven by guilt or things like this  how how do you actually find time to to actually   think about you’re going to you have pride going  to decrease or you have this going to decrees I  

Mean aren’t you more engrossed in the challenges  of the world and getting there on time and putting   your full heart and soul into it and let Morya  take care of the pride and the rest you know  

That that pride thing is is your hand over your  knee with focus of El Morya face down written   on a sheet of paper that’s what you want to do  until you you don’t have to do that anymore or  

Or the various things have changed different Pride  things have come along in the meantime but if we   don’t use that blessing of el Morya then then El  Morya doesn’t have the the energy for the world situation well what I find myself doing  is comparing myself to others like I’ll  

Go to decree and then I’ll look around  and see who’s there you know it’s like   measuring people up when you’re  following the rules it’s almost a   justification that you’re doing the right  thing because you’re following the rules

But another aspect of it that I want  to point out is that I do find myself   comparing myself with others and a  lot of times when I interact with   people people think I’m a nice guy  but a lot of times this like facade  

Comes from false humility and it’s like  behind underne sounds like you’re too analytical and my wife says that a lot you says  I think a lot you have to get Beyond yourself   on the path or you really don’t won’t make it you  have to lose yourself in service forget about your  

Name and who you are and what you wore today or if  somebody yelled at you or didn’t you know you can   sit here revolving about all kinds of things uh  we’re too too comfortable we have too much time  

To do that the world doesn’t have that much time  we we have to be up and doing and our pride has   to be you know put in a bonfire and we move on  I mean what you’re saying to me today it should  

Not take you more than the 48 Hours of this vigil  to put it to bed forever this stuff about looking   at people wondering what they’re saying wonder  if you’re better than they are that’s that’s   not good it’s not healthy very unhealthy just  just quit it just make up your mind this is an  

Addiction I’m quitting it tonight I’m not going  to be worrying about who’s doing what out there   I don’t worry about what who’s doing what out  there except to make you could do it louder I’m  

Going to get after that on Friday we’re going to  work on the power of our fire do you know what I   mean you could spend the rest of your life doing  this they revolving thoughts you mean yeah yeah  

It’s it’s very unhealthy how do you make decrees  really have quality and fire I mean I’ve thought   about this and a lot of times I find my mind just  wandering off that’s that’s the point you you see  

That particular valve is open so you’re losing  energy because now your brain is thinking or now   some other part of you is is having some kind of a  re reaction so if you’re if you’re bleeding light   from every chakra because you’re thinking about  this and thinking about that and and you’re not  

Really putting positive fire into the chakra but  you’re more thinking about whatever you’re doing   or you’re thinking about this level or the next  level or this down or this one up here and pretty   soon you fragmented yourself and so where’s your  power what happened to your power it kind of got  

Trickled through all of your chakras but in no in  no one of those chakras do you really have the the   power to pun punch through and you know reach  the other side of the world where something’s  

Happening that’s why we have to lose our self in  service when we’re looking inward it’s like we’re   eating ourselves you know it’s like you just go  into the in this way instead of going outward and   it’s it’s very unhealthy and it’s very dangerous  and if you’re sitting there in your mind twiddling  

About what what you’re doing or not doing or what  the guy is doing over here or that there you’re   losing your strength your masculine strength the  power that God endowed you with to embody the   ascended masters to be an ascended master and  this is very serious I’m glad you came to the  

Lecturn and you have to think about it and not let  your thoughts be divided Here There and Everywhere   until instead of one major thought I am going to  this service I’m going to stay here so long I’m  

Going to stand up for S your I’m going to give my  calls with all the fire of my heart I’m not going   to look to the right or the left left I’m not  going to think about problems at home I’m not  

Going to think about anything else but delivering  the goods to El Morya while I’m in this court and   you have to discipline your mind because your  you have indulged your mind until it is spoiled   you’ve got a spoiled child for a mind that sits  there you know revolving this stuff and where  

Are you where is the totality of your wholeness  of your being since the time you came out of the   Great Central sun and came all these lifetimes  on planet Earth you have gotten into a rut of self-examination how can one stop that  though willpower call upon the Lord and you

Know you have to call to God and say I can’t  stand this I don’t want want it anymore I want   to be stripped Pummel me do something I can’t  stand it I’ve got the whole world that I should  

Be praying for and here I am TTLY bidding  with wondering what who’s doing what next to me make your Ascension don’t come back  next time you make it this time promise   me look at El Morya promise him you’re  going to make your Ascension in this  

Life and stop ping around stand in front  of him and Shout to him now go right up   there not where you are in front of him  there you are now give give your Fiat to   him and let everybody Rejoice master El Morya  I promise you I will make my Ascension in this life

Bravo great evening mother uh Friends Community  I didn’t think I had a whole lot of Pride or at   least I didn’t think I had a problem with it  until I got married and uh then I realized I  

Had a whole Iceberg underneath the surface that  was now on the surface um and I think uh I I grew   up with a father who completely dominated uh his  wife my mother and and uh my wife is nothing of  

The sort and I had the example where uh my father  told my mother what to do my mother didn’t uh say   anything in response or in defense of herself and  I expected to marry a wife like that well I didn’t  

I didn’t get that at all which I’m very grateful  for my wife is very fiery uh even though to most   of you she seems very Meek she me to me she’s  very outspoken and she’s very um she says what  

She wants to say and and so what I find is that  uh my own pride gets offended by it and and um I   find that uh that I’m facing this of of somebody  uh uh my wife a woman who’s speaking to me in a  

Tone that I’m that I’ve never been used to hearing  before but you didn’t hear anything before yeah remember you just told us that’s [Laughter] right  um but uh what I’ve I’m glad to hear that pride is  

Going to be something that we’re going to battle  for the rest of our life because I constantly am   a witness to that and I and I feel that I mean  not every day of course but it’s there all the  

Time and uh the one thing I found that really  helps or the one thing I found that I’m that   I’m avoiding when when when something comes uh  pride comes up and it wants to avoid it it wants  

To get away and uh what I found is that if I sit  and listen to what is being told me it hurts my   heart and I realize what’s happening at that PO uh  moment is my heart is opening up and that opening  

Is a painful thing and so instead of feeling  the pain the part the human consciousness The   Pride wants to run away I don’t know if that’s  correct but that’s what I feel and uh so that’s  

A process I’ve been going through it’s it’s true  the Beast of Pride does does not want to be killed slain and I feel in my heart it’s where the  the pain of opening of accepting of receiving  

And and I know that’s a a chakra and area that  I I need definite expansion in well you know   you can carry pride in your heart all your  life a lot of people think this this humble  

Hearth kind of notion that um the heart is  filled with love and does not have a problem   but the heart does have a problem our hearts do  have a problem the physical heart has a problem  

And one of the problems that uh is exacerbated  in the heart is when we take in a lot of red   meat and a lot of Yang food then we develop  Hardness of Heart and I observed Hardness of  

Heart growing in me um in the 10 years before  I got on the macrobiotic diet and um I realized   that that was the problem and that is one  of the key and major reasons why we don’t  

Advocate that we eat a lot of red meat because  we develop Hardness of Heart and you find the   people people all over the world who eat the  most meat are the ones that have the greatest   hardness it’s amazing to observe that as you  travel so that hardness is literally hardened  

Fat the fat of selfishness is sitting in our  hearts and this Beast of pride is is feeding on it and when I when I stopped my old diet and I’m  on the macrobiotic diet I feel the the tenderness  

Of my heart and the love of my heart that I  can give to people and the awe that I have in   my heart before your holy Christ self before your  hearts and I realized amazingly that it came down  

To the physical level as to whether or not I  could sufficiently give the love of my being   to the whole world to all of my staff to all the  lightbearers of the cosmos so I had to pull down  

That love in tremendous quantities to reach  many quantities of people and and I came to   realize that the greatest gift that I can give  to people is all the love of my heart because   my heart really is a vessel for Jesus because  I’ve kicked out that Pride but it’s lurking  

It’s there you know I face it as everybody does  but the the greater portion of my being is humble   because I decided to be humble not because it just  happened I decided that I have to be humble before  

Your Christ self humble before your being your  personhood whoever you are I I don’t even judge   you whether you’re Advanced or not Advanced  but it’s my service to love you and hopefully   in loving you you will let go of those things  that that have made you hold on to Pride such  

As diet for for starts but then temperament we  have to take a hold of our temperament and our   temper for myself I don’t eat red meat I mean  I haven’t had meat in many a decade or so it’s  

Probably very good that you haven’t yeah I grew  up that way though my dad always hate that um one   one technique I found that really helps me not  that a technique that helps me to overcome the  

Irritation or whatever is as to uh give the Mantra  that Jesus gave us say what is that to thee follow   thou me and no matter what offense or whatever I  may take offense to if I give that Mantra whatever  

It it dissolves it passes away it may pass away  but did you go after the root the root core of   Pride when I worked in the garden at home home we  had a big Garden I had to get out the roots of all  

These weeds and things that choke the flowers  do you go to the root of Pride or do you just   let it pass away on the surface I think I need  to go after the root more I think we all do it’s  

At that deep subconscious and then unconscious  level thank you thank you hello mother and Hello   friends I have an incident that I want to talk  about which is pretty old but it definitely has   to do with pride in the kitchen you often have  to tell people what to do and U this situation  

Happened several years ago this beloved one who  was there helping us um was doing her work in a   certain way she’d been told to a certain way and  I came up being in a hurry and was entirely rude  

To her and told her very directly to do some other  way of whatever it was that she would doing and I   thought that i’ had been working on my pride and  other things about myself and by God’s grace this  

Lady was sharp enough to write to you and write to  my supervisor and say listen if you have people in   your kitchen this is a paraphrase because it’s  been a long time that that are in this frame  

Of mind that are in this vibration uh that it’s  it’s not a very good thing and so it was really   interesting it was like a slap in the face to wake  me up to say look look at what you’re doing and so um since that

Time I’ve I’ve tried to do that but the thing  that was good about it was that I knew that I   had to face this lady and what I did eventually  is she came as she did from time to time to come  

And help us and I apologized to her and I thanked  her for waking me up because basically I thought   I thought that I was probably doing okay until  this person came up and said wake up you are  

Totally in the wrong vibration and so from that  point when I see myself I make it a point to   apologize to people because I realize that I  think I’ve made progress and yet I still see  

Some of that same stuff come up so and at this  point in time it’s very good because there’s one   lady in the kitchen who will come up to me and  she will constantly I me it doesn’t happen every  

Day but when it does happen she comes and she  says I don’t like to be talked to this way or   whatever it might be and it’s very good because  then and we have a good relationship so she just  

Talks to me and she says you know this isn’t  the way to do and then we and then we talk   about it and then we go I go on but it was like  this was the first real wakeup to make me open  

My eyes about where I’m am not thank you you’re  getting there fast though yeah I’m getting there faster mother and friends I’d like to talk about  a uh major confrontation I had with pride last  

Six months I’d also like to at the end tell about  um two people apologized to me and how affected I   was by it um what you said in the beginning of of  Daron here mother about us we’ve some of us have  

Been around for a while it’s probably one of our  things we can be most vulnerable at especially if   we’ve been doing a particular profession for a  while and figure we’re pretty expert at it I’ve  

Been doing my job for about about 14 15 years  years so I figure I’m pretty good at it um so   I had a failing in this uh the last 6 months  prior to this incident I found that I was um  

In retrospect irritated at just life in general  um and quite dissatisfied with myself and so I   guess these were uh two things that pressed what  was to come about in my life and I want to let  

You know the keys that I learned in this in ENT  because they’re extremely valuable to me uh what   did happen was uh I put in a long days of work and  and for some um I had to work quite late that day  

Quite late so I went to bed very late uh very  early in the morning and um I received a phone   call to tell about some work I had to do and I  figured this was this was uh uh this basically  

Shouldn’t be happening you know I’d worked late  at done all this stuff and why was I getting this   call and I really proceeded to chew out the uh  the operator that called me and um I figured I  

Was in some sort of position to to lecture this  person about what they uh what they were doing   what exactly they uh were conveying to me and  whether it was appropriate and I really gave them  

A piece of my mind because I figured it wasn’t uh  I figure it wasn’t right and in retrospect what I   saw in that is I actually saw myself and I didn’t  see it at the time it had to be pointed out to me  

Because I was completely oblivious to it but I saw  myself in the position to um be in the position to   judge that person and what they did because what  I knew or what I thought I knew um anyhow as this  

Proceeded on um fortunately God loved me enough  or was disgusted enough with what I did that uh   he made sure that you found out what I had done  and you what astounded me is that within I think  

A very short while of you finding out this you  uh contacted me uh and this was late at night   this was now late that evening and it’s like you  were pursuing me like The Hound of Heaven trying  

To find me to let me know before the sun set  on this day what I had done and at that point   I really was not aware of even how I affected  that person um as it turned out I was actually  

In um in transit and so I wasn’t near a phone so  gave this message to to my wife and she came home   and said uh I’ve got a message for you so I said  um you need to sit down so I sat down and uh it  

Was a very serious message about um where I was in  Consciousness and what I had done to this person   and probably what two several things happened  out of this uh even though you didn’t speak to  

Me directly I I felt the fire come through it was  it was a most interesting thing I could feel the   seriousness come through the words that my wife  read to me and I realized it was a very serious  

Message that it was uh a time to assess what I  was doing in my life where I was it was a soulle   initiation I really felt that uh the other thing  that was very important for me to know was how I  

Affected the other person because up that point  um I did not realize how I affected that other   person and that’s this was to me key because  I figured it was just part of the uh part of  

The process but when I realized how much I had  affected the other person it really it really   woke me up to the pain I caused that person and  to me that was a major key to understanding this  

Thing this Beast it’s almost like this uh this  Rubik Cube puzzle uh it was another aspect that   you can get a handle on it and until I saw that I  really couldn’t appreciate that this thing thing  

Was something that had to go if I saw it within  my own world I could somehow live with it but   when it when I saw the pain it caused others this  is where it became uh something I couldn’t live

With anyhow I think the other part of this test is  I was so locked into how I thought I I knew better   than this person that um the other sorts of prize  probably the only person I would have heard this  

From would be from you mother I’m sure if this  person told me hey this isn’t the way to speak   I probably would not have accepted it that time  and that unfortunately was a point of Pride too  

Because it took you giving the message for me to  actually to wake up and hear this anyhow it was   very sobering for me I I looked deeply within  and um I wrestled with that a good period of  

The night and I assessed myself and decided  I was not happy with how I was treating this   person and other people in a similar way so  I’m glad you said this is an ongoing process because it’s something I did wrestle with and I  felt a certain release up from Once I made the  

Decision okay this is going to go this is going  to go I actually felt and even though I had also   gotten a discipline out of this and I had gotten  major chastisement once I had decided okay this  

Is going to go I felt incredible joy in felt I  was in fact I was I was elated and I said this   is ridiculous you received a major chastisement  You’ really caused a problem and yet when I let  

Go of this thing I felt absolutely elated did  you feel loved because you were chastened oh   yes see this is that’s the major Revelation this  isation I’m telling you I I felt like standing   up and telling everybody look you know pursue  chastisement I mean I mean this this really to  

Me I mean this this was such a revelation and  um but the joy doesn’t come until you let go of   that thing you’re chastised with if you’re holding  on to it it’s Agony oh it’s just horrible um the  

Other key is is uh in the process of this I was  assessed by some people and um I want to repeat   the thing that you said earlier is uh somebody  brought up the concept well instead of having  

This fault replace it with a virtue and which  is exactly what you said just a little while ago   and that to me was also very valuable because it  got beyond the point of don’t do this instead do  

This positive thing and that you’re somehow just  you can only get up to neutral by not doing this   to to add to to it with the quality you actually  get somewhere ahead of the game that’s really all  

I’ve got to say because it’s um as you’ve told us  an ongoing battle and uh two things that happened   um people apologize to me that very very very very  much impressed me um I actually forget sort of the  

Details of the incident but I remember there was  some difficulty I had with somebody and um this   person came to me later very quickly very quickly  and apologized to me uh very sincerely and I was   so impressed by that um because they easily could  have taken the position that well you know really  

You that’s your opinion this is my opinion and so  on but they they came back and graciously uh not   you know begrudgingly but iously like they were  giving you a platter or a gift or or something  

Like that and I was so impressed by the caliber  of this person’s soul I really could like it was   like opening a door and looking down a hallway  with many things in I could actually see the  

Depth of that soul and it it very much impressed  me it wasn’t like I felt you know okay I won the   argument or something like that I don’t even think  I can’t even recall exactly what we were doing but  

The part that sticks with me is being impressed  by this person’s uh rapidity and willingness to   apologize abundantly and that took humility yes  it did and let’s all remember that Pride goeth   before a fall MH it’s a warning mhm Pride goeth  be before the fall so if you’re so duly warned  

By that statement from the scripture you already  know your pride is there and you’re going to fall   unless you quickly reverse the whole cycle mhm  just saying that for the benefit of everyone here  

Thank you and the second second person apolog ol  to me um I we haven’t spoken in many years much I   guess it’s um we don’t see each other much and  I I we haven’t particularly I think had a good  

Relationship but recently this person began to  talk to me very friendly and and very um kindly   and inquiring about what I’m doing and and being  very kind and I was kind of startled by this and  

I remember talking to this person looking at him  and for the first time in my life and I’ve known   this person probably 18 or 19 years looking at  him and realizing for the first time what clear   bright blue eyes he had can you believe that  in 19 years I’ve never really realized that  

It just astounded me and I was very impressed  by uh uh by his friendliness thank you mother   thanks for the opportunity to to witness to thank  you good evening mother good evening everyone um  

I have pride and as I was sitting in my chair  and you had told us to think about something I   said well gez I know I need to be up here I’ve  got to think about there’s got to be something  

And as I started thinking about a couple examples  that came to my head I started realizing how they   all came together and what they really meant and  um what I realize is that uh this Pride whatever  

Form it takes really hinders you and um when the  first times I ever encountered you was at the trk   and I was serving you and um and I’ve had a lot  of waitressing experience maybe too much more  

Than I care to admit to and uh and you told me  you know you’re being disruptive and can’t you   see that my fork and knife are on the plate take  the plate away you don’t need to ask are you done  

And and I you know I okay I I took the plate away  and then I went over to the other waitresses and   I was talking about the situation and I said well  you know I know how to waitress and not everyone’s  

Done with their food when they have their fork  and knife on the plate and and you know all these   things are going through my head and um one of  the waitresses that had served you before said  

Well what you need to do is when you’re serving  mother you need to really get in tune with her and   her needs and her holy Christ self and and and  try to you know figure those things out so you  

Don’t need you know to be so oh are you done you  know and be disruptive so there was that lesson   that I know I can apply now because of my new job  and um I didn’t I didn’t think about it before  

Because I let all my own whatever get caught up  in what was trying to be um taught there and then   uh this past holiday um can I finish help finish  the story certainly cuz I’d like to explain to all  

Of you who may at one time or another be waiters  waitresses working in the in the ranch kitchen or   ever that um the point of serving is to be serving  with such um gentility and respect for people  

Talking having their conversations that they don’t  even notice you but if you want to be noticed   you start talking to the customers and and you  would never do this in a fine restaurant it just   wouldn’t happen and it truly is a signal to the  way waiter or waitress that you have finished what  

You’re going to eat off that plate and there might  be still some food on it or it might be empty but   when The Knife and Fork and Spoon lie across the  the dinner plate in the center you don’t have to  

Say anything to the person that you’re waiting on  because it it is the the way we behave in western   civilization and this ability to put guests in  our restaurant at ease and not carry on a lot of  

Cabber with them when they come in contributes to  their sense that we have that gentility and that   sensitivity that when people are talking you don’t  just come along and say are you through can I take   your plate when it’s obvious that’s what you’re  supposed to be doing so since we’re going to be  

Opening some of you are going to be waiters and  waitresses and this is one of the things that I   think think are important this was the wedding  right yeah so this was um mcnab’s wedding and   people were very much engaged in conversation  and uh you know it was a a reception for them  

And so it makes our restaurant look like a diner  to have to always be talking at the help because   you don’t realize that um you can do a lot to  to clear away dishes and not even be noticed  

And that’s the idea when we’re servants we don’t  want to be noticed and so we follow the rules of   etiquette and then the waitress doesn’t have to  talk to us the waiter doesn’t have to talk to us  

And that means that we need to know the etiquette  that says okay if you’re through put your knife   and fork in the center of the plate so I hope that  happens and I hope we get a cut A Cut Above where  

We have been in in waiting so that that people  will recognize that we have a certain refinement   in in our understanding of of serving the public  great um to continue with what I was saying um   this past holiday I uh went with some friends  cross country skiing and I noticed myself getting  

Really irritated with one person just because  they couldn’t keep up with the rest of us and   and so I was you know and going back and circling  around and and you know I want to keep moving cuz  

This is my time my exercise and then I’m thinking  later on wow I feel really bad because I know what   it’s like not to be able to keep up when other  people are more advanced and and why I was so  

Caught up with my frustration that I didn’t even  think well why don’t I go back there and try to   give her a few pointers or or or try to help her  out so she can get better so she could keep up and  

Um so again that Pride well you know here I’m fast  I’m good and and this person’s not as you know up   to level not becoming the Christ not going back  and helping so that she could you know come up to  

Our level as well um and then one more example um  just being critical of people just uh there was a   person that I work with um and inside a lot of it  goes on in the mind you know looking them up and  

Down no to saying this or that about them and and  um and then when I got to really know this person   I realized how beautiful they really were and I  felt really bad that I would even think of those  

Things because I didn’t know them I was having  these critical thoughts and and and now when I see   this person it’s like wow you know you’re just so  great you’re just such a beautiful person and and  

Everything else that had come to mind was just you  know it that all those aspects of Pride you know   just hindered me from learning from serving from  loving and so um I’d like to admit to that and and  

Apologize um to anyone that I may have uh treated  that way whether they were aware of it or not and   uh since I am here to love and serve and learn  I’m hoping that all of you as my friends can point  

These things out to me you know and hopefully  I’ll be gracious if not you could point that   out to me too but um anyways thank you what what  Morya is saying at at the end of your statement  

Is that criticism is a curse when you criticize  someone you are mentally cursing them and I don’t   think anyone in this room looks at himself and  says I curse people when you condemn people you   are cursing them when you are judging them you  are cursing them so that’s quite an indictment  

Against all of us so we mentally criticize and we  verbally criticize it’s the two ways we do it we   know that’s the only two ways we have but um the  minute we see ourselves doing it we have to have  

Available to ourselves ready thought forms like we  have a bouquet of cutout flowers on the wall and   the minute we realize we’re criticizing someone  we have to immediately send them tremendous love   and call on the law of forgiveness or that will  ACR to our Karma that might be just might be the  

Level of karma where we don’t make our 51% because  of the CCJ because it comes straight out of hell   death and hell that’s where it comes from nowhere  else God doesn’t criticize judge and condemn you  

Ever he will discipline you he will chasen you  but he will not CCJ you so who’s doing it then   your carnal mind and the dweller don’t accept  it don’t dish it out cut yourself free thank

You good evening mother and friends I’ll make  this very short I was reading a note that I had   written on my Des that I had on my desk since  April and it was from a dictation by Archangel  

Michael and it said let humility be your byword  so I just ran to my office to print out the page   so I could read this quote to you and I realized  why I had taken this to heart so much when I heard  

This dictation and it’s because about 10 years  ago mother you had told me that I needed to heal   the rents in my garment so um I I think that this  quote is very profound and it made me realize that  

Perhaps pride is a cause for creating the rents in  our garment so here is the quote it’s from April   4th 1996 from the Easter conference by Archangel  Michael and so beloved understand that where there  

Are rents in the Garment let them be healed let  them be healed I say and accept that healing as   you perform those good works and enter into a pact  with God that humility shall be your by word and  

In the power the stupendous power of humility that  self effacement therefore let God fill all of your   being and know that and know that very tight  Oneness with the Maha Chohan the holy spirit   thank you very much thank you what this path all  comes down to is the Maha Chohan and the Holy  

Spirit we need to put more effort into getting  the Holy Spirit uh we’ve all read enough books   uh by Christians who are very devout beautiful  people we’ve learned from their teachings we we’ve   learned when we’ve seen them on television some of  them are phonies and some of them are very great

Souls but what is really going to make  this this organization fly is that we   call for and receive and internalize the  Holy Spirit and the Holy Spirit will not   abide in us and with us constantly if  we are not sending forth love to all

People our techniques such as dealing with ccj  dealing with pride dealing with all these things   are are much more um complex and incisive  than the simple Christian teachings which   is why their one problem their Achilles heel  is that they uh are opened to Demons because  

Because they have an inordinate desire to have  the Holy Spirit Mark Prophet told me that many   many years ago their desire is inordinate so  all they want is the Holy Spirit and because   they don’t take that Holy Spirit gradually as we  do stepping up the ladder step by step to receive  

That Holy Spirit to retain it to live in it to  be with it all of our Lives um if we wouldn’t   do that we wouldn’t have the successes we’re  having and what happens to the Christians is   that because their desire for the holy spirit is  inordinate then demons come into them instead of  

The Holy Spirit and that’s tragedy and then they  get all mixed up as to whether the demons are of   the Holy Spirit or the demons are not demons I I  think most of the time they don’t even recognize  

That they have demons and that is a shame but  what will bring people to the Mountain of God   is each one of us embodying the Holy Spirit  and each one of us sending forth signals of   divine love people read our auras from across  the planet they assess us very easily at inner

Levels Divine love meets every human  need and the presence of the Holy   Ghost within us is necessary absolutely  absolutely necessary to the success and   the expansion of our church people want  transformation they want God they want   love and we need to be pillars of the  Sacred fire of divine love walking the

Earth everyone is of you here is a magnet for  that love or you repel that love because you’d   rather carry your pride or your hatred  or anger your prejudice this or this or   that we can have both we have to want the  holy spirit with all our heart and soul  

And mind and Purge ourselves of all remnants  of human consciousness where we have flashes   of hatred or flashes of anger or flashes of  Pride that deprive us of our victory in that moment there are many holy people in this  earth who truly have the Holy Spirit and do  

Not have demons they’re beautiful souls in all  the world’s religions I think that because as   the Bible says to him that is given much much  is expected and we have been given much and   almost take it for granted but the goal of  this path is the Holy Ghost and when you’re  

Infilled with the Holy Ghost you will know  new levels of empowerment as your being is   purged from any leftover human consciousness  material this is when we will be of the most   value to the ascended masters to El Morya to St  Germain when we defer to the Holy Spirit and we  

Prefer the Holy Spirit above all else we’re  willing to give up everything else to know   that when we walk and move among the people  we have a mantle and those who are of the   light recognize it and they will follow us all  the way to this mountain of God at Maitreay’s  

Mystery school so it’s almost like we have  just begun and everything else is prologue   the past is prologue now we have to step at  that level and stay there and heal the world   through Divine love not excluding but definitely  inserting the power of the Ruby Ray the Ruby Ray  

Masters the Ruby Ray judgments and really going  after every force of anti- love with Chamuel and Charity I’m going to give an invocation that  you might receive this Holy Spirit please stand beloved Mighty I am presentence from the heart  of God in the Great Central son we your servants  

Stand before this altar of God that you have  prepared for us in the wilderness we look to   you our beloved Maha Chohan as the Incarnation  of the Holy Ghost to the entire world we say to   you to the Darjiling council to all hosts of  light we have carried long enough hard enough  

We are ready to move to the next stages of our  development to the place where we might embody   a greater portion of our three-fold flame no  intense communion with our holy Christ self   walk and talk with our Mighty I am presence  let there be no division between Heaven and  

Earth let there be only the rejoicing of our  hearts that we we have seen everything of this   world there is very little of it that we wish  to have a part of but that part that we deeply  

Desire to have oh beloved holy spirit is your  presence even in the very depths of our being   as you groan within us to deliver us to purge  us to bring us to that point and that moment  

Where each one of us here can kneel before the  altar of our God and go to that Holy Spirit and   know that we might be received we might have that  mantle we might have that presence whereby we are  

No longer in the confinements of our mortality  but we have chosen to be Immortals and in that   immortality that we might have that Holy Ghost  in us oh God therefore this night we ask for   increased chastening purging quickening in the  very understanding that we have that empowerment  

Through our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and that  we want to be in the very heart of the Holy Spirit   to see this planet through to the victory we thank  thee Oh God we accept it done this hour in full

Power in the name of the Father the Son the  Holy Spirit and the Divine mother I seal each   one in King Arthur’s Court each one on the  patch throughout the world I seal you in the   heart of the Holy Spirit and I ask you to  diligently Purge from heart mind and soul  

All that would prevent you from receiving the  Holy Ghost and abiding in your temple till the   hour of your Ascension this is the goal and your  ultimate Victory to be one with that Spirit we   thank thee Oh God and together we say command  ye me we call upon you almighty God and we  

Command you to bring order into this planet  order into this church Divine love in every   heart cut free the children by in the forces  of the Satan and their seed let the victory  

Of God be upon us and let us be worthy of it  we accept it done this hour in full power amen